Paranormal (In)Activity?

Disappointment.  Huge.  According to the majority of my Facebook friends, however, it is the new "It" movie.  I don't know.  I won't go into details because you (whomever that may be) may not have seen it yet.  It is one of my biggest pet peeves when people dive into a discussion about a book or a movie without warning.  For example, my friends and I were debating on seeing either Seven Pounds or Doubt (when it first came out) but a girl we were with chimes in and tells us the ending of Seven Pounds.  Excuse me?  Yeah, you know, the end where Will Smith's character...heh, just kidding, I won't tell.  Anyway, yeah...that sucked.  I'm still kind of upset that they made Saw VI, but of course I'm going to see it.  They've already done the prequel and all the sequels, I'm interested to see what else Jig-saw could possibly have left to say.

On a different note, I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.  I would like to know how to save myself from misery early on.  It's kind of like...hm, let's say you are a long-term ice cream fanatic who has just been diagnosed as being lactose intolerant.  You have enjoyed ice cream for years, so this is quite possibly the worst news ever, and completely out of your control.  You try very hard to stay away from ice cream (and other products containing lactose, of course) but one day, you realize that the one thing that would make you happy is to consume some Phish Food (Ben and Jerry's, yum) ice cream.  You are very well aware of the regret and remorse that will soon follow, but after spending days away from your source of happiness, you begin to feel that it would be better to feel a moment's happiness and suffer later rather than be miserable constantly.  

Yeah, that's precisely how I feel lately.  I know this isn't going to work out in the long run, but I'm happy now, and I like being happy.  Can't I be happy?  Even for a little while?  Meh.  Go figure, the one guy I meet that 1. follows through, 2. is willing to meet/hang out with my friends, 3. wants me to meet his friends, 4. actually has his own friends, 5. isn't just trying to "get some", 6. not an asshole, 7. thinks almost exactly like me, 8. gets the quirkest of my quirks, etc., etc., etc...has way more baggage than I can really deal with at the moment.  But all baggage aside, it's all good.  I feel like everyone wants so badly for me to move on while I'm ahead, but I personally don't feel like walking away is the solution.  Trust me, I know the logics but we all know that feelings are so completely illogical.

I need to start focusing my energy onto more important things.  I really want to get involved in volunteer work again, I just wish school allowed me more time.  This research lab is killing meee! 

I wish I could be a better blogger, but I'm way too scatter-brained. 

Now I really want some Phish Food ice cream.  Hmph.  I have to go read Aristphanes but I have to be up in 5 hours for class.  Eek!

Until next time,

Peace

I'm doooone with school (for the summer)!!!  :) 

I feel so relieved, but it hasn't fully hit me yet; I still feel really stressed out about something unknown.  I can't wait to (hopefully) sleep in tomorrow for the first time in a really long time!

I just watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and, as a result, I feel really...strange.  The movie brought out all sorts of random emotions out of me.  One quote that really struck as meaningful to me was, "I was thinking how nothing lasts, and what a shame it is."  I want to elaborate, but alas, as is always the case when I have time to be on Xanga, I'm quite tired since it is really late.  It just made me really...sad...to have been reminded of the nature of life.  I wish I could freeze certain moments, capture them into jars, use a sharpie to label them and put them on a book shelf.  Then memories could last forever and people never ever leave your heart. 

Le sigh.  What a draining day...

Until next time,

Peace

I felt inspired to write, but of course xanga screwed up.  Perhaps I will feel inspired again soon.

Until then,

peace

Although I have been a xanga member for years now, I've never taken the time to explore the site.  Only as of late have I read the featured blogs and to my surprise, it has become one of my favorite past-times!  It is refreshing to read deep, well-written, and sometimes overwhelmingly hilarious thoughts of people whom I do not know.  I suppose it is kind of creepy in a sense that I'm gaining access to the inner thoughts of strangers, but hey, it's a public blog so why not? 

So, along with this new revelation of mine, I went back and read some of my old blogs.  Shockingly (not), I was embarrassed of how immature, boring, pointless, and awkward some of my old posts were (I even made some of them private so I can still have them on record but others may not...haha).  I can reassure you though, my thought process at the young age of 15, 16, 17, 18...even 19, was very opposite and contrary to it as of late. 

I really want to write an interesting blog, but for some reason, my words never seem to come out right.  I guess I've never been much of a writer, just more of a talker, listener, or reader.  So maybe this is where my time ends.  For tonight, at least. 

On an ending note, I would like to point out the fact that there are no men in the movie "The Women"...irony?  Also, The Reader is a very good movie. 

Until next time...